
After several years' absence I return to China on the morrow and abandon my home in Orion for most of the month of November. As many farewells as be stars in heaven, and to you my friends as many fond wishes as the miles between us.














Like a mouse in the pantry, I kept on a shelf in a dark corner at the back of my uncle's bookshop a collection of treasures. These were baubles, bits of glass, pinecone people with acorn heads, etchings and plates come loose from their bindings, and books liberated from the tables where they were to be sacrificed to commerce. I imagined no one knew of my mousehole, hidden as it was where two giant cabinets met at an angle, and reachable only by a dusty person of diminutive size, but I now think it was a luxury granted me by the compassion of a man toward an orphan with an appetite for knowledge. The largest (and most valuable, had I been sensible of such things) was a book of marvels by "the most miraculous mystagogue of nature": China monumentis, qua sacris quà profanis, nec non variis naturae & artis spectaculis, aliarumque rerum memorabilium argumentis illustrata, by Athanasius Kircher. This musty folio edition, published sixty years earlier, and based on the tales of jesuit missionaries and envoys, embellished and elaborated in Kircher's fertile imagination, introduced me to the wonders of the Great Wall, to the pine-apple, to Confucius Trismegistus(!), to the use of pictographs as a method of writing, to tea and silk, geomancy and flying turtles. I travelled across those tall Thibetan peaks many times in my imagination, and studied those complex characters until my eyes crossed in hope of deciphering their meaning.

At last I had a few moments to spend with Osprey and Enjah. Our sparkling conversation soon descended to a dank discussion of shellfish, smoked carp and arthropods, for Enjah was on her way out to consume a dinner of raw fish. Osprey remarked she had eaten raw whale (or was it Enjah? I was preoccupied with maintaining my spiritual balance atop a unicycle) and before long came up with a poorly considered plan to ride one into the night. We managed to stay astride for a while but soon found ourselves wallowing upon the entry way to the creature's digestive tract. Exploring we found an ingress but no egress, which must be a relief for the poor residents who seem doomed to clean up after the whale passes overhead. I suspect the strain is the reason for the founding of the Fight Club nearby.
Is it because I am inescapably a fictional character that I take what happens upon the stage so much to heart? That I so readily confuse actor and role? That the depiction of a matter becomes for me the matter itself? Jenůfa is a disturbing opera, with characters so burdened with guilt and fear that they totter at the edge of their wits and reason, pulling their audience after them.
